Balancing Act

I’m a bad fiancée.

It’s only happened a couple of times – I swear! – but I snapped at Mr. Ladyfingers last night over a stupid little wedding planning detail, and I feel very, very ashamed over it.
Puppyface

Yes, this ashamed plus more.

Photo by Puppy90210 (Own work) [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons

I won’t go into the gory details, but suffice it to say, I was unnecessary and mean-spirited. I said many things that I neither felt, nor that are true. Things along the lines of my having to do everything and him doing nothing and not caring.

Gah.

We kissed and made up, and I told him how verrah, verrrrrrahhhh sorry I am, and went into a spiel about how stressed out I am. Not that it excused it, but it served as a sort of explanation.

“I’m under a lot of pressure at work, which is good pressure, but it’s still pressure, and I feel bad, like I’m not spending enough time with friends, and the wedding to-do list is a mile long…”

And he stopped me and said, “Then why don’t you back off the wedding a little bit?”

I gasped. “BECAUSEILUFFIT!”

Well, we can’t have our cake and eat it, too (though I don’t really get that cliché since I frequently have cake in my possession and eat it as well, but whatever). Either I embrace my wedding planning spreadsheet and the growing pile of craft supplies and shopping lists, or I apply the brakes.

Our little incident got me thinking about how to balance my life so that I don’t put all my eggs in one basket (another cliché! why do I have eggs in a basket??) and plunge into post-wedding depression because my life is just so empty and devoid of meaning without 150 paper flowers to make and 500 little triangle bunting flag thingies to glue to yards and yards of ribbon.

Turns out that when I sit down and think about it, I am balancing things fairly well:

  • I work out at least 4 times a week. I don’t know if this counts since it’s in response to wanting to lose weight for the wedding, but it makes me feel awesome because I never ever worked out before January. It helps me burn off some energy and aggression, and helps me sleep better, too. It also helped my posture, and, surprisingly, my skin. So there ya go.
  • I see friends 4 to 5 times per week. I also catch coffee every Friday after work with my girlfriends, and go to breakfast with a group on Sunday mornings. My task this week: Have coffee with them and not bring up the wedding AT. ALL.
  • I try to read non-wedding-related material. It takes me a while to get through books these days, but that’s nothing new. I’m currently on “The Kennedys” by Peter Collier and David Horowitz. Next up is Keith Richards’ “Life” and then “Catch a Wave: The Rise, Fall and Redemption of the Beach Boys’ Brian Wilson.” Are you catching a theme here? I kind of like biographies.
  • We do date night. Most Saturday nights, it’s dinner-and-a-movie time. Sometimes the movie is at home, sometimes in a theater, sometimes it’s replaced by a mighty competitive game of Trivial Pursuit. Other times, we throw in some daytime quality time, like flea market trips and early-morning beach visits. We’re both super busy, but we still make time for each other.

Since that’s about it, here are some things I’m vowing to do from now until the wedding:

  • A night off. Every Tuesday is my “do-nothing” night. This includes wedding stuff. No talking about the wedding, no crafting, no reading about weddings. NO NO NO! We’ll see how long this lasts…
  • Sunday morning me time. I like to kick around town by myself sometimes, so Sunday mornings will be reserved for this. But! No wedding shopping. No, really.

That’s all I can think of for now – but how do you balance your life as your Big Day comes barreling down upon you?

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4 thoughts on “Balancing Act

  1. bri says:

    Been there – and if I’m being totally honest, my one night a week off from wedding talk came out of that tiff (as in: can we just not talk about wedding stuff for one night a week?!) This from a man who is almost as involved in the planning process as I am.

    Working out regularly is a big one – I just started doing the Couch to 5K program – as is reading. Although I’ve been pretty good about the NWR, I use to have a book blog that has been pretty much untouched since I started the wedding blog. (I love that you dig the bio’s – I’d suggest Patty Smith’s Kids if you haven’t had a chance to pick it up yet )

    • capellett says:

      I hear ya! There are only so many times a person can hear another person go on and on about whether the centerpiece bottles are too green tinted, or which shade of gray paper we should use in the programs 😉 Thanks for the recommendation on the Patty Smith book!

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